I'm Back

It’s been a while. I can’t exactly tell you why I haven’t posted anything. I’m inclined to say I’m busy living my life instead of writing about it, but that sounds harsh and that’s really not how I feel. I love writing and I certainly love writing about my little boy, but I guess I can say that for the last month and a bit I’ve really been focusing on myself and getting ‘me’ back on track. As a result I feel better than ever! In less than two months Evan will be one year old. I’m almost there and I feel victorious! First of all because Evan is a beautiful, healthy, happy, fascinating little boy, which to me means I’m doing a good job. I also feel victorious because John and I are stronger than ever and I’m back at work and absolutely loving it. There were (many) days 6, 4… 3 months ago when I didn’t think I would ever feel this way, yet here I am, ready to shout from the mountain tops, “I love being a mom!”. Oh, and can I tell you about the cherry on top of my already great mood? This past Sunday Evan said “Mom”. Now he had no idea what it meant, but he said it. Sure he said “Dad” on Friday, Saturday, Sunday, yesterday and today, but that’s okay. Mom is a harder word and I know I’ll get an ear full of “Mom, mom, mom, mom, mom” as he grows so I’m not worried. Even hearing it once sent shivers through me. We’ve already been through so, so much together Evan and I, but there’s still a lifetime ahead of us.

I’m back and I will try to post more often, thank you for your notes and messages and thank you for helping me through these first 10 months.