For those of you that don’t know I work for a radio station called The New Hot 89-9. Now I’m not actually heading back into the studio, I’ll be working from home for the next two months; it’s a way for me to ease back into the working world. I’m very grateful that my job allows me to take these baby steps. Just the same I am a bit nervous. I’m nervous that I’m going to be losing prime sleeping time should Evan have a rough night, I’m nervous that he won’t cooperate and will cry while I’m on the air. I’m nervous that it means I’m one step closer to actually leaving my baby and physically going into work.
As one friend pointed out to me yesterday I am going to be eternally torn now, missing Evan while I’m at work and thinking about work while I’m with Evan. I’ve had moments of doubt about heading back before the year that I could take to be with my little guy, after all you only get one chance at this, but I love my job, I really love it and it’s a big part of who I am so I’m going to try my best to make it happen, and hopefully I won’t feel all that torn… Maybe I’ll even feel better?! Like my life is even richer with wonderful moments, people, experiences… we’ll see.
Here are some fun pics from our last few days of summer (that sounds so sad).
Evan's first boat ride...
Cottage living is so good...
We are ready to hear you back on the air Josie. Don't feel bad if he happens to squak in the background, while you're on the air either. Just think it's the morning Hot Tub...Would you rather listen to Evan cry, or Mualer and Rush??? Cna't wait to have you back on the air.
ReplyDeleteCongratulations to you and your family!!! he's adorable.
Keep up with the posts. I don't have children of my own YET!!! still waiting on my man, but for now live vicariously through you...dreaming of what mommoy life is like.
Keep up the great work, you're awesome on the raido, as a mom and as a writer of these blogs!
Thank you!!
Oh my little Evan I miss you so much! I want to kiss those chubby cheeks so bad. And Mommy, WOW, work already? Nuts! Good luck with the adjustment, you'll make it all work I'm sure of it. xox
ReplyDeleteJosie,
ReplyDeleteI too am going back to work in September before my son is a year; he is 6 months.
I visited his daycare just to confirm things with the supervisor. I felt oh, so sick to my stomach with nerves, and had my list of questions.
She was terrific, and I did feel better after our meeting, but I still have that knot in my stomach, wanting to ensure my son is safe, and all his needs are met.
Mat leave is a priviledge; and I am so grateful we live in a society where we can be career-minded women with a great support system that supports our efforts to balance family and work.
Bravo to you!